I have struggled with depression, possibly bipolar, since childhood. I can't remember a time when I did not think about suicide. In my teenage years I started smoking, drinking and taking speed to just deal with life in general. There were weeks that I would just stay bottled up, hiding away in my room - depressed and wanting to just go away... to die.
In my early thirties I saw my first Psychiatrist. I was diagnosed with anxiety and went through bio-feedback therapy. It worked for a little while, but it wasn't long after that I started falling back into my old self. Still, those suicidal thoughts lingered in my mind. Today, I am on a couple of different medications for my issues and they seem to be working really well. I still have those suicidal thoughts on occasion, but nothing like before. For those of you that have experienced the severe depression associated with bipolar, you know very well just how helpless and lost it makes you feel.
Enough about me. I am creating this blog to hear from other people that have depression and/or bipolar disorder. Maybe we can learn more ourselves and help each other by discussing our experiences.
Trevor
